Poem [#6] : I have the Curse

I have the Curse

Why inflict pain?
Why not make it easier,
When all it takes are silence?
Why bother when not bothered?
Can’t say that I asked too much
When I never had spoken at all.

Please forgive my living days,
For I never asked for it,
Please forgive my existence,
For I work too hard to hide it,
Please forgive my wisdom,
For it’s all that I have.

I run miles and miles,
Hoping to fade away,
Wishing the bruise on my toes
Will cover the pain of my dying heart,
Wishing the dark night
Will hide those deadly stares.

I chose to receive the curse
And refuse to pass it on
Even if it means freedom,
I chose to take it all
And keep it to myself
Even if everyone condemns me for it.

I have the curse!
And I will not deliver it to anyone
Not to my child nor yours,
It’s no sacrifice but a blessing,
Blessing to see through your power
That’s nothing more that a curse.

-Samantha A.

Poems [#5] : The Path I'd Taken

The Path I'd Taken

I'd been on the world of falsehood
Driven by threads woven by citizens,
Mesmerized by those connected hands,
Never bothering to question its rightfulness.

Years of duty without understanding
Years of crawling in a foggy path
Years of denying the sight of wisdom
Delivered by voice as warm as a mother's hug.

A hurricane shattered my brittle ball of glass,
Breaking every piece of me in every chance
Leaving me hating, blaming and cursing
until the foggy path turns to dark endless one.

Long, long agony with no one to hold on
Making me numb like an old and cold stone,
A misery filled with nothingness
Contained inside a little icy bottle.

But my blood can never be contained,
It spilled out and I'd known how to cry,
After years of numbing torture,
Who would have thought that all I needed was to cry?

I cried and cried until i just want it to end,
But a light suddenly gotten hold of my heart,
Never wanting to let go and give up on me,
Saving me from falling on the cliffs.

Touching me with love and care,
Making me forget of how I'd been,
Miraculously sewing back the pieces,
Healing every torn in my heart and soul.

The light taking me out of darkness,
Giving me complete blissful shine,
Fogs completely cleared-out,
Dark completely forgotten.

Here I stay with my savior
Who never had and never will abandon me
Here i live and cheries the very essence of my existence
Forever with Him, my beloved Savior and God.

-Samantha A.

Poems [#4] : Agony

Agony

When your hideout felt like a battlefield,
Where would you go?
When everything was taken and no more to yield,
What was left to do?

When your dwelling made no home,
Where do you stay?
When escape was only on tomb,
Where would you run away?

When your friend was your murderer,
To whom would you call?
When even love couldn't be your keeper,
To whom would you hold during your fall?

I wanted to fly for I am a falcon,
But you see me as a sheep
With no power to carry on,
Only to be chained on your rusty keep.

I wanted to touch the sky,
To feel the air beneath my wings,
And to make you see with an open eye,
But I couldn't bring myself to stop its shakings.

My fear burning me,
Your hands kept hurting,
My tears drowning me,
My mind rebelling.

-Samantha A.

Poems [#3] : Life of a Loner

Life of a Loner

I'm a loner,
That's what they say,
Though, I don't care
For I live just for myself.

No words can hurt,
No wounds bring pain
But silent hugs
Shows how broken I am.

Smiles to hide,
Silence to masked,
Shell to protect
The fragile part of me.

A reflection
I saw one night,
Reveals the past
Of how I used to be.

Then I wondered,
Is it myself?
Seems it's long gone
For I can't remember.

How these happened?
Changes that great,
A mystery
That I shall find answers.

A walk in past
Show real smiles
Of that one girl,
Yes... she is the old me.

Reality
Came over me,
These are changes
Cause by my fearful heart.

Afraid of pain,
Scared of loss,
Fear of sadness,
Frightened by rejections.

Hopes to find
In bleeding heart,
Hoping to see
The part willing to love.

Taking chances,
To become brave
Or be cautious,
Which one I must choose?

You're a warrior,
Take some risk,
To win or loss
Which ever, just give your best.

You're a princess,
Shield by high gates
Never hurting
For you're concealed by fear.

Time to decide,
Warrior with risk
Princess so safe,
Tick-tack, as time goes by.

To fight, to love!
That's what I chose
No care for end
Just walk on road of life.

Now I smile
I see the world
Full of beauty,
Wonderful! I know now.

-Samantha A.

Poems [#2] : Behind the Dark

Behind the Dark

Imagine life without light,
How can someone appreciate the beauty of life?
The beauty of the creations of God,
The beauty of each individual that surrounds us,
And most of all, the beauty of our love ones.


Imagine life full of darkness,
Where everything is hidden,
And nothing can be seen,
A life that is so full of the absence of art,
A  life that everything seems to have no value at all,
It is indeed, imagining the unimaginable emptiness.


But the another side of the story suggest something more,
It is somehow, darkness itself is a beauty of nature,
That the absence of the appreciation of beauty makes everyone equal,
It is where criticism has no place to step in,
It is where pretension does not exist,
And it is where only the pure-hearted ones will survive.


Imagine some people glowing in the dark,
A true and a good friend glows while the fake ones remain,
The honest and loving citizens glow and the liars remain,
In this world, being rich or poor does not matter,
And the inside is clearly seen,
It is indeed, living in simplicity and pureness.

-Samantha A.